2009年9月26日星期六

Games = Pain

Alright, since Davin said reading Chinese is far too troublesome, I think I gotta type this one in English, no matter how reluctant I am... Mmmm yea, just came back from a little walk. Got a new laptop. Well, come to think of it, it should be my 7th comp which I owned in my whole life. Oh well, if you count those DOS and windows 3.11 ones, that is.


Got some accessories and walked passed a game stall. Saw a few of the titles which I wanted: Resident Evil 5, Red Faction Guerrilla and Batman: Arkham asylum. People who knows me well enough will know what a game freak I am. Anyway, after around 1 second of mental struggle, I got all 3 of them for 800 HKD. Pretty cheap when I compare that to the pricing in steam, which adds up to around 140 USD (around 1100 HKD). So... 3 games down, 2 more to go (Assassin's creed II and bioshock 2... screw L4D2) Oh and the new Need for Speed (shift isit?) looks kind of promising. Undercover is crappy, though Most Wanted is pretty epic if you ask me. Not that Most Wanted rules or anything, but at least it's better than it's predecessors.

So currently, there's 3 great (currently) titles sitting beside me, while I am trying to work on the 2 presentations (both of them are kinda heavy) which are due on the day after and on Wednesday respectively... YES! I CAN FEEL THE PAIN! Man.... seriously, why can't they come out like a month earlier?! 2 or 3 days is all I need to clear 1 game... blehx .... T.T ... ... ...

Why is Batman:AA 18+ only?!?!?!

2009年9月14日星期一

陰盛陽衰

首先我得説明 我真的不懂該放什麽做標題
我懂這標題會有點噁心
可我真的... 江郎才盡了 (雖然我是沒有什麽才華喇...)


今天第一次上現代主義課
還好啦
全班 包括我 有三個男生
嗯 全班有大概三十個人吧?
其實算好了
不過唯一的問題就是
另外的兩名兄弟
都只是來坐坐的
並沒有真的選修這門課
他們說對這議題感有興趣
而且這段時間蠻空閒的
所以就來坐坐囖
所以 實際來説
全班只有我一個是男的......

救命吖!!!!!!!

發生什麽事了???!!!
班兄弟呢?!?!?!
我自己一個是生存不了的喇!!!
前晚去單挑然後全部被幹掉是嗎???
拜托...
上一次上課的時候還有大概十個八個男的吖...
真的...
突然覺得好可憐吖...
救命...

2009年9月10日星期四

八半

一想起要上八點半的堂
就會有片刻想起以前預科時候的情景
早上六點就要起床
七點得到學校
然後八點上課上到下午五六點
現在回想起來
在大學上八點半的課
其實算蠻好的喇
第一
我不是得連續十個小時上同一些苦悶的課
第二
八點半我也曾經上過
其實也不會怎麽地難受
只是早期罷了吧?
呵呵
這種回歸預科時候的感覺
其實也挺懷舊的啊
唯一希望的是
別再像預科時候那樣在堂上睡着了...

2009年9月9日星期三

Shesh

這世界自主權去了哪裏了?!
幹嗎我寫一些比較感傷的東西
就開始有人會來問我
"what's wrong?!" / "what happened?"
拜托...
一些感言而已喇...
一些爲了對得起自己而寫的話
是不是我一定要滿口粗話才算是正常?
是不是我動不動都要說 "去死了你" 或 "信不信我打死你" 才算正常?
好啦好啦
獨白其實也是一種自我反省的好方法哦~
其實吖
對自己說一大堆無釐頭的話
一些連自己都看不懂的個人哲學
其實蠻好玩的

而且 要怪就怪facebook喇
整天事無大小 有事沒事都會把握網誌的東東丟上去
所真的
我真的想把一些類似笑話的物體放在這
可這也未免太牽強 太奇怪了吧?
還是留著
等有機會見面的時候才講吧~

嗯嗯
不過我還是得感謝那些問了問 "發生什麽事" 的好友們
畢竟我沒想到小小的一篇 或幾篇 胡言亂語可以觸動到你們的反應
我不太會説話
不過
嗯嗯嗯
真的很謝謝
=D

2009年9月8日星期二

好人?

好人 其實 都挺難做

好多時候...
... 沒有人會理會你所做的一切
... 沒有人會認同你所幫的忙
... 沒有人會感謝你那無謂的付出
... 沒有人會明白其實你可以不幫
甚至 ... 沒有人會察覺到你的存在 ...

不過
若果我會因此而變得虛假 變得現實 變得爆燥
我做不到
對 沒人看得到
對 沒人會理會
但 我還是會盡力去幫我自行認爲應該幫的
還是會做我自己應該做的

不 我並不認爲我是好人還是什麽
我只是讓我的潛意識帶領我自己
抱歉 我從來都不認爲我聰明
所以我不懂得分辨對與錯 是與非

若果我連那麽一點事都不幫
抱歉 我做不到

2009年9月7日星期一

多年以後...

...還會像這樣聚在一起嗎?
...還會記得彼此的蹤影嗎?
...還能擁有那無邪笑聲嗎?

...還是已懂得虛僞現實了?

開學了~!


又開學了~!
新的一年
新的同學
新的學係
不過說真的
我從來都不喜歡改變
就算是某些避不了的變化
也只會靠時間來淡化
所以我不擅與跟不太熟的人溝通
也不太喜歡做某些新鮮事
雖然我自己本身的適應力並不差
但我也需要時間去慢慢了解
我真的不是那種見了一兩次面就可以暢談的
慢慢摸索對方舉止與談吐的習慣
我才會放膽去開口

所以我也應該會慢些才交到朋友吧?
不過
避不了的啦
還是準備開學吧~~~

2009年9月1日星期二

guitar~

Trying to pick up my guitar skills again
Got a replacement for the broken 5th string
Been HELL LONG since I've played
Its all back to zero...
and my fingers hurts (left hand) after a few hours of practice
...wth...

2009年8月31日星期一

Childhood...?

Just wondering, did I ever write about my kiddie days? I don't mean the days when I'm an idiot for no reason or whatsoever. I mean the days of my primary school and stuff. I guess I didn't talk much about my primary school days, eh? Oh well, perhaps I really should write a bit on that.

Hmm... where should I start? Maybe I'll start with my living environment. First and foremost, my dad has two apartments, all thanks to my mom. One of it is in Kowloon, and the other, Southern Hong Kong island, beside my school. So I will mostly be talking about the one in Hong Kong isle, cause I've stayed there for at least 5 days a week. Yea... Well, anyway, I have never considered myself someone who lived in poverty or something, and I will get lectures from my dad if I ever mention something like that. But the thing is, my living environment during my primary school days is ... well ... lacking. A lot of typical metropolis sophistication, such as electronic gadgets, cannot be found in my home. Well, my primary school days lasted from somewhere mid 90's to the end of 90's, so during that era, it's quite typical for families to have some sort of entertainment and domestic electronics at home. Not my case. Alright, lets count what's there in the apartment which I lived in. Fridge... Radio... Telephone... some books in simplified Chinese which my mom got from some sales .... and basically that's it. It's true, there's no television, no computer, no comics, no toys...

It's not that bad, cause I still have a telephone (in the living room) and a radio. Yea, so basically, each night, apart from some dull and dry and travail homework, its radio tune-ins. The reason my mom gave me (and my dad to a certain extend) for not installing a TV is cause it will distract my studies (and for heaven's sake my age was like single digit then). As for comics, its bad for my eyes (but I have close to 900 degrees myopia now ... so its ineffective after all) and it will distract my studies as well. And toys, well, seriously I don't remember the reason for throwing away my toys ... ah yes, cause they will affect my studies as well (recycling of the same o' lame of an excuse...) I used to have a game boy, those big and old and black and white ones, but my mom threw it away cause, again, it will affect my studies. Strange enough, my grades aren't all that great in class. I'm always near the bottom in terms of class positioning. My grades started to improve only during the later years of my secondary schooling, of which I had my own comp, comics, toys (well, not much then), and television of course. So what does all these banning and restriction do? Well, to make my life as freaking miserable as possible.

Things aren't really that better in class. The thing is, I used to cry a lot. And I mean A LOT. Erm... typically once per every other day? This kind of habit left only after I reach junior college (which is like secondary 5/Pre-U 1). Well, I admit it, people don't like dudes who cry (as if I can help it), so people normally pick on me simply for the sake of it. I won't hold grudges cause it's pointless, but hey, all that I can say is, that's life. Seriously, my childhood reminds me of Nobita from Doraemon. A dude who always cries, always being picked on, and screws up almost every other thing he tries to do. Blehx, sounding kinda pessimistic here, eh?

Anyway, yea, the world is unfair. It always is and it will always be. Nevertheless, when it's unfair, why was it biased against me? WAS, and I'm not complaining about anything current, though I still believe that things can be fairer...

2009年8月27日星期四

:-)

已經不是工程學係的學生了。看著那班(算是)舊同學在趕他們的畢業專題作業時,心裏真的有一種感概,跟一絲的悲哀。他們真的挺努力的。趕工的趕工,採購的採購,找資料的找資料(也有一兩個頽廢的頽廢)。眼看他們就要畢業了,這幾天都會聯想到爲什麽我會浪費多一年的時間來追求別的學科。

說實話,我會堅持轉科是有我的原因的,而肯定不止一個。我會常常跟人說不喜歡或不想讀來做藉口。對,是藉口。皆因原因實在太多了,多到我自己都記不起某些。其實,我的確是對這一門學科沒有興趣,可這也並不代表著我的執著和我的爛成績。

其實我很討厭數學。一來我自己不喜歡那種埋頭苦幹的東西。自從高考以來,我就明白到數學是一定要埋頭苦幹的,而當你閉關修行的時候,你真的會與世隔絕。這感覺真的很爛。可這不是唯一不喜歡數學的原因。其實,可能我說出來會每人相信,可我真的,真的,真的很討厭抄功課。還記得有一次在小學的時候我抄了一次功課,就那一次。被老師發現了。老師沒有罵我,而是帶著一種悲哀的語氣對我說:“我寧可你跟我講你沒有做,我也不想你抄功課。”說完,她就走了,也沒有罰我什麽。真的,這種語氣和這句話真的會烙印在心裏。所以從中一開始我就沒抄過功課了。中學還好啦,看見別人抄功課,還是別人問自己拿功課來抄的時候,我都無所謂的。因爲反正他們的功課,就算是交了,也不會影響到會考跟高考的成績。他們不做事他們的問題,我也懶的理他們。可上了大學就不同了。所有功課都有算分的。我承認,我自己做的話我不確定我會拿到什麽樣的分數,甚至某些我真的不會做。可我身邊的人,全部還是一樣地抄,什麽都是抄。那些自私的傢伙就別提了,可全世界都是在抄功課。

有一次,當我見我的附屬教授的時候,我便跟他提起:“我不想讀工程了。全世界都是在抄功課。”然後那教授(名字就別提了)便跟我說:“對,他們的確是抄功課,這世上也不可能有一個制度可以壓制這些。但他們抄功課,最起碼他們及格,而你有嗎?” 這番話聼了之後,真的會覺得人生再也沒有什麽光彩了…… 嗯,還記得我進來這大學的時候第一志願是放化學,第二是放電腦科學的(好像只放了兩個)。至於爲什麽會給我電子,我就真的沒頭緒了。可因爲這教授所說的,我,真的,不想再讀跟數學或科學有關係的東西了……真的厭倦了。所以,第一年的時候,我便嘗試用我高考的成績來報讀港大,可最終都沒被錄取(因爲我已經是大學生了)。還記得有個朋友收到通知書,說只要高考兩個B就可以入港大社會科學學院了。當時我真的很想說:“若你進不了,讓給我吧,我夠,我夠分!” 算了,不是我的永遠都不會是我的。所以第二年的時候我便計劃了一些轉主修的計劃。

嗯,其實讀什麽真的是命運的安排跟作弄吧?一開始的時候,我真的沒想過我會想讀英文。文科呢,在新加坡給別人的感覺也是挺爛的吧?可來到香港就真的不同了。回想起在我校這幾年,真的,是運氣牽引著我。要不是那天剛好看到某科英文有位,要不是跟那教授談了一些,要不是那教授叫我再讀多一科,我,真的,可能也進不來這學係了。

2009年8月21日星期五

-.-

-.-
真的
我個blog好似死下死下咁
可能需要換下個theme吧?

2009年8月20日星期四

我似...?

前幾日同班小同聚了一聚
我同佢地講話我轉咗去讀文科
有人講 : 你個樣似係讀文科既人
我似...?
講真
我自己無權話我自己似咩
但若果要我話我自己似咩
我會話我似一個連大學都入唔到
似一個遊手好閒一無是處既人
點解?
似 唔代表示係
我似咩
其實係越奇怪越好
咁當我可以顯出否定那些論點既野既時候
我所霸佔的記憶碎片便會更大塊
=D

被tag了?

大家都應該知道facebook是何物了吧?
最近有某些相片
是什麽 不說了
有一堆 幾乎有我人頭的我都被tag了
至於另外一堆 幾乎所有人都被tag了 除了我

其實感覺蠻奇怪的
也可以說是挺矛盾的
第一堆 我好想說
哇靠 一個小白痴在那裏不懂幹嗎
做麽要tag我呢?
第二對 我也好像說
爲什麽全世界都被tag了
除了我
是我被遺忘了嗎?
還是... ?
嗯 還好吧
沒什麽特別感覺的
可能我是那種總是會對現狀不滿的人吧
若是把我遺忘了
最好這輩子我都聼不到你們的消息
那會好過一點
嗯嗯
有開始有點情緒化了
哈 不懂幹嗎
這一陣子都是這樣

2009年8月18日星期二

=/

我承認 我並非聰明 Mensa不應該收我
我承認 我脾氣很怪 會有朋友已經是奇跡
我承認 我知識淺薄 世界上有太多事我真的不懂
我承認 我野心很大 常常會設些無可能的目標
我承認 我喜歡裝酷 到頭來只會讓人更加討厭
我承認 我懶惰得很 努力只是一種愚蠢的掩飾
我承認 我語文不好 錯字錯詞錯文法總是與我圍繞
我承認 我是個白痴 做什麽都只會帶來麻煩



我 就是我

2009年8月16日星期日

Been long... ?

Been quite a while since I've written something here... two months to be exact =D Well, first of all, in case some of you didn't know, I'm studying literature. As for reasons being, talk to me in private if you want to know =D .... and for heaven's sake, stop calling me lit prof, I'm no where near that kinda standards........

Anyway, yea, got the feel of orientation. How retarded we have to be, well, I think I will leave it there. Did a module on Buddhism and, hell, I am pleading anyone who bothers to read this, don't ever take anything religious... a B for an essay based module... seriously.... And I hate cod...

Yep, thats bout it. Nothing much has gone on for the past months.