做不到

看不懂或不想看中文的人 抱歉了 -.-
久違的中文網誌 =P

...
開始明白爲什麽會對某些不知名的東西感到厭倦了
一開始會覺得有點莫名其妙
爲什麽總是有某些東西不太對襯
總是好像什麽出了軌似的

只是一點點感觸而已
但突然覺得 我存在的"空間" 新的"空間"
...太虛偽了...
看看某些版上的留言
會發覺它們跟本尊所曾說過的話
出入太大了
可能我不太懂這軌道是怎麽走的吧
可是 我還是比較喜歡以前的那一切

拜托
誰說他們無知
誰說他們單純
除了虛僞 我從他們身上真的什麽都看不到
或許我孤傲吧
可最起碼我不懂得把自己隱藏起來
帶著面具 很累
看著滿街的面具 更累

你們的規範 說真的 我不懂
可那規範所意味著的
只有那股窒息般的反感
那好啦
我自己掉進什麽規範 隨便啦
你們的面具 我不會帶
你們的規範 我不會懂
你們的一切 還是你們的

只讓人看見自己想讓別人看見的
抱歉
我做不到

Finally, some fresh air~

At last, i felt that my time is mine again.

For a starter, I seriously believe that writing in general has got something to do with your attitude. Why am I saying that? I used to be capable of writing something like a thousand words (English) in an hour or less, but nowadays it takes like two to three, or sometimes even four or five. Why? Maybe I'm giving too much of a damn about all those crap that I'm writing. Maybe. Well, they are just some random babblings, right? So why bother so much about it? Get to your point, throw it all out, add a full stop, call it a day.

Had quite a few assignments that was due in the past month. Life was like... "what? there another deadline coming up?" And to further reduce the already lessened time, I've somehow managed to clear Assassin's creed II and Bioshock 2 in this duration. Yay, screw those homeworks~~ Blehx, I'm not in particular found of writing, mind you. I just like to express my ideas of certain topics which, at some point, I find interesting. Oh and mind you again, when I say 'interesting', I meant those that me, myself and I consider interesting. If its out of the category, its out, and don't cry over spilled milk... thanks =D.

There just a few things left. Two finals, (screw them, I hate studying to é core) and two papers (I think I've mentioned that I don't like anything that is older than the 19th century... and I haven't. I would have mentioned it after this sentence =D). I won't be giving too much of a thought about those, so I'm sitting here, supposedly should be studying, but I'm babbling my way through in this little blog of mine and, yea, gonna shoot some zombie heads later.

Don't ask, cuz thats how things work for me.

Days without interent...

I don't in particular know what the heck happened to the Internet connect at home. The thing is, it's down and theres no way in particular that I can get it to work. So the thing is... I am stuck in McDonald's using this free wifi stuff from my lappy and it's been a few days since this crap has started. Well, I had a presentation to rush or else I won't be bothered, and yes, I CANT BE BOTHERED, to go somewhere else to use any interent. But hell... that's life, isn't it? When your life is getting screwed in a perfectly normal way, something worse came by and screw it to a greater, much greater extend, eh?

Anyway, well, a few days off the line and I certainly did feel the significance of internet here. First of all, somehow I couldn't get anything work done, or rather I can't get myself to work. Maybe I'm too darn used to surfing the web, googling or wiki-ing stuff and writing those babblings at the same time. Well, maybe. But still, I guess thats the mode that I'm used to working with. Sitting here, looking at the comp, gold-mining using google. Mmmmm... thats how life works, I guess.

Another thing is that, well, somehow, without the internet, theres still hell lot of distractions here and there. I turned my attention onto my NDS. Ace Attorney is interesting =D Somehow, single player games are interesting as they are, and multiplayer ones are, somehow ... well, they have their charm, but their game mechanism isn't exactly all that rich in a few other aspects such as plot and etc etc etc. Multiplayer games are more action oriented, no doubt.

Speaking of single player games, why does Assassin's Creed II require an interent connection to play??? I mean, come on... It's only a single player game. Requiring an interent connection to play a single player game is ... dumb.

Windows start up music

Was camping at the back of the classroom in lit and art class today, as usual. I don't really talk to the people there, not much at least. Not that easy blending into them.

Anyway, the instructor asked a peculiar question and the whole class went silent. I was switching my notebook then. After like 2 to 3 seconds of silence (tranquility to me), the Windows start up music of my notebook played... Of course, it broke the interrogating silence, and the whole class roared with laughter (though with some subtleness). Guess I screwed up again ... eh?

Oh well, at least I managed to broke the silence in a funny and acceptable way, though I'll rather I didn't.

Lost in translation

I know I'm not that much of a righteous person. I know. I KNOW. Why? Cause I can't help laughing at someone when he or she screws up (mostly he, I don't normally laugh at girls). Oh well, sometimes its real hard try not to laugh at something that is hell hilarious, especially when that guy tries his best to make it look real cool. Cool my a**...

Anyway, heres what happened. Theres Chinese lesson, as usual. Our instructor asked us to translate some English brand names/slogans into Chinese. He split the class into 4 groups and asked for peer reviews after that. Well, the first one is this (Hong Kong IFC slogan) :

Be informed, be amazed, be shocked

And our translation is

體驗吧
驚喜吧
震撼吧

Well, I personally don't like the 吧 too much cause it gives a strong hint of "mainland" feel, but still, it has the most positive votes for the peer reviewing so I guess its still a nice little translation =D. Anyway, the second one is an American cosmetic brand:

Urban Decay

And our translation is

小城誘惑

I personally liked this one quite a lot. The 小, or small, sort of represents the size of cosmetics in quite a pictorial form. And then 誘惑, or temptation, here, brings out a hint of negativity which can be observed from the word decay. 小城 here defines a cosmopolitan state and its insignificance, which corresponds to the word Urban. The whole phrase than gives the reader a sense of significance that is embedded in a larger insignificant context, just like how the significance of cosmetics is enhanced though it is insignificant when compared to the rest in terms of size. Anyway, we got the most positive votes (again, ya =D), but the point is... theres one particular group which I find ... well, I beg your pardon but.... hilarious. To cut it short, heres what they wrote:

都市歷崎

When I first saw this phrase, what crossed my mind was roller coaster, or rides of some sort. Erm... seriously, isn't the adventurous sense kinda too strong here? It just reminds me of those theme park rides or tourist rides, like those city bus rides of a sort... -_- ... Then there's this word 崎 ... I know they wanted to rhyme with the last syllable of Decay, but ... do you have to? It looks real weird. And that really reminds me of 山崎麵包 ... -_- ... and I said that to my group in quite a loud voice... yea, the dude who wrote this must have heard... (that explains my intro paragraph)... oh and to make it worse, he wrote explanation for each and every word. Heck... so much for creativity... its too chocking -_- ... and that guy acts like hes such a pro in these crap and things like that (who else will give one whole bunch of explanations for 4 words?!) ... come on, get a life... ...

Oh and why am I writing in different chucks, point X for intro and conclusion, and point Y for the middle portion... Thats so ... Achebe...........

Grammatical

You have some interesting points about Sontag’s thesis and you have clearly thoroughly examined Sontag’s book on photography. Grammar and sentence structure need a little more work. Good Work

Basically, I still suck at grammar. Blehx, so much for being singlish native...

改詞 - 還是剩我一個

看到工程系的戰友們都要畢業了
突然有某些話想講
算了
就拿一首歌
把詞換掉
會比較貼切點

還是剩我一個 (說好的幸福呢)

曲：周杰倫

我們不是説好的　 一起畢業呢
可是爲何還剩我一個　繼續在熬呢
你們穿的畢業袍　 還是橙色的
相機斷斷續續拍著照　留作紀念了

快離開了　 走了　 別回頭就是了
快走了　 去了　 要散了
一開始的數學科　 我還得F兩遍呢
有些科只讀到這真的夠了

怎麼了　畢業了　還是剩　我一個
我懂了　defer了　夠遜了　活該了
那堆F過的科　一一細數著　我再retake
GPA零點九的那個成績　還呈現著呢

你們走吧　就丟下　我一個
我錯了　承認了　成績呢　泡湯了
只是那張成績單還得保留著　還能怎麽了


你們快要脫難了　 我還熬著夜
還記得以前那些功課　還是抄的呢
懷念那些source吧　 以後就沒了
而你們離開這鬼地方　這就解脫了

照片拍了　 帥了　 畢業袍也穿了
滿足了　 爽了　 那我呢
告別的這小玩兒　 我嘗過好多遍呢
只要能記得我就真的夠了

怎麼了　到頭來　還是剩　我一個
不捨得　捨不得　到最後　都散了
那熬過的日子　一一細數著　若再重演
那些無趣無聊又苦悶的課　我才不要呢

快點走吧　別對這　眷戀著
炒股的　教書的　什麽的　都好了
只是不要學我這樣還留在這　讀這些屁呢

怎麼了　三年了　還是剩　我一個
爛課本　八半課　那筆記　幾百頁　我快要挂了

別再等了　快一點　離開這
告別了　分道了　有緣的　再會了
只是那些一起頽廢過的日子　不會重演了

I'm starting to like it here~

Well, to cut it short, there are two things that happened which I think that its worth mentioning. Something minor, trivial, but, yea, guess I won't start swaying off topic again, eh? =)

Anyway, I woke up late today, as usual (... doesn't sound all that great to admit this little habit that everyone has) and I have to reach sch within 30 minutes (which is literally impossible if i took the normal routine, which is train). So I took a cab. Well, IF everything went according to plan, I would have reached sch in time. But, nah. Somehow the cab driver missed the junction which leads to my sch (and there's only 1 along the highway). So what happened was, he have to drive for 5 whole minutes to the next junction, make a U turn at a possible spot, and then drive backwards, to my sch. Yea, that took an extra 10 minute plus, but thats not what's important.
The thing I want to stress is that, the cab driver stopped the meter after he missed the junction. I don't know if he thinks I know the way or not (well, I do of course, since I've been studying here for two and a half years) but what is important is that he doesn't want me to think that hes delibertly taking a detour or something. He apologized for the detour, and charged me at the rate where he stopped the meter. Well, I don't know what you all think, but I do have nothing but respect for his righteousness. I mean, its nothing important. The cab driver didn't have to tell me that he missed the junction. He can still charge me extra. I mean, who cares? It would definitely have been that way if I'm in Singapore. But, nah. He choose the way he think hes right. Guess I don't have to elaborate anymore, eh? =D

Oh well, I was late for the tutorial (as usual, I guess), but only half the class showed up so I guess its fine. Oh and I wasn't anything near agitated when the cab driver missed the junction. I mean, he doesn't charge me extra, so why should I complain?

And then when I reach home, I found a letter from some company - Octopus (for those of you who're in S'pore, an EZ-Link counterpart). Inside the letter was a little check of $5 HKD (a little less than $1 SGD). What happened was that, it's some money that got "eaten" by some vending machine (most likely in sch), the type when u paid but nothing come out. The funny thing is, it's only 5 bucks -.-, and if I am not mistaken, the mailing cost is around HKD$3.4. So that means that the company paid an extra $3.4 just to get $5 to me, which accounts for a bit less than 60% of total. Erm... I don't know what you guys think of this, but what I think is... is it necessary? I mean, of course, the company has my sincerest gratitude (man... I sound hella formal here O.o) but then and again, I've always been buying stuff from vending machines and there are many occasions when they machine "ate" my coin and stuff. I'll just frown on my luck and forgets about it. Nothing special, nothing significant, but I'm sure of one thing. I won't cash in the check. You know why? 'Cause its worth more than $5, much much more~

Come to think of it, they are always frowning upon the society, how crappy everything is, how a civilization is not civil and stuff. Screw that. There are people outside who are more moral, more ethical, more civil than you think. Don't get yourself glued to ur computer monitor or newspaper, but get yourself outdoor and see things for yourself. The world isn't corrupted, it's not apocalyptic, its just the minds of those miserable and pathetic university geeks who have their heads stuck to a textbook. Screw education, and get a life. The world deserves more than some pessimism from dudes who only knows how to read and calls everything apocalyptic.

$5 Check

Letter

Hey erm...

For those of you who are reading this, do me a favor. Please leave a message or say hi or something!!! I know there are quite a few people out there who's reading all these babblings that I have written. How do I know? Cuz the counter is ticking~! Oh and I have a way to check, so, yea, don't buff~~~

Oh and why is my grammar getting from bad to worse? -.- I kept spotting grammatical mistakes and even extra words... Blehx, guess I've been reading too much. Schoolings do drive nut-head nuts...

No racism, but textbook teaches otherwise

I never wanna say this but... you know something...? I don't, in particular, dislike other races or whatsoever (even if my attitude says so, it's just because i don't like that particular person) but after a month in a module that teaches African literature, I started to think otherwise. Ok, everything's in your culture: war, casual sex, the washing and reusing of condoms, nudity, big bellies... Fine! I won't dislike someone because I find washing and reusing of a condom is entirely gross (Imagine someone walking into a drugstore and asks for a condom, and the dude replies with something like "Sir, would you like a new one or a 2nd hand one?" ... gosh...what's wrong with this world...?!). Oh well, yea, I admit it, my likeness-o-meter of such has gone slightly negative. Slightly, like -1 or something (if it's countable).

Then there's the names that the prof want us to remember. Well, seriously, when you try to pronounce such names, either you're a native or your English literally sucks if you are capable of pronouncing them correctly. Trust me, it's worse that all those funny languages that exists combined. The likeness-o-meter goes down here a bit, too. Just a bit.

Then there comes the language. Funny phrasings, fine. Native languages, fine. But... some of them are not English!!! I won't be studying English if I am interested in anything that is NOT English, eh? As if I understand native African ... makes no sense... Likeness-o-meter got lowered again.

And theres the French movie. Yea... FRENCH. Well, I have got nothing against french as long as theres the subtitles, but theres this potato head that is so freaking tall and big (head) and he sits in front and the subtitles are at the bottom of the screen. Cool. I would have shot it if I had a gun (a little glock will do) in my hands -.- Oh and did I say that the story ends with 3 dudes peeing in the rain along a grass patch? Nice ending, eh? No one normally ends a day pissing in public.

Oh well, everything sounds fine, eh? Well, I won't say anymore but... yea... you get the picture...

Reading list

- "On Photography" - Susan Sontag
- "Girl with a Pearl Earring"" - Tracy Chevalier
- "Heart of Darkness" - Joseph Conrad
- "Utopia" - Thomas More
- "Girls at Wars and Other Stories" - Chinua Achebe
- "To Kill a Mockingbird" - Vintage Lee

... hell... what got me into this???!!!

CNY

It has just occurred to me that this is my first Chinese new year in hong kong since in like somewhat 9 years. Well, I was in Singapore for quite a while (7 years, pretty long to be called "a while" eh?) and I spent the last two CNY in Beijing and Singapore respectively. So... yea, that explains why I have not had a "Hongkish" CNY for like 9 years.

Nothing much. Walked down the street and the whole darn world is on holiday. And theres this drizzle... It suddenly feels like an apocalypse or post-apocalytia (Fallout 3 style). Lets not use the word "apocalypse" for CNY though, but the street is, for sure, filled with a certain creeping blight that seems to kept it empty.

Went to a few temples to say my prayers with my dad. If my memory is not mistaken, I haven't been to a temple on the first day of CNY, mostly because it's hell crowded. Yea, they still are. The amount of people cause one to feel the effect of growing population. Not to forget, there are joss-sticks and incenses everywhere, and you need to dutch those falling sparks, or else you can say bye bye to your clothes.

My dad got me one of those "divine labels" (i dont know how to translate it properly, so lets keep it that way) and its supposed to write your future or some sort (words of advice, I'll say) on it. Whether it works or not, its up to you. But then and again, its free, so why not? I won't say what's on mine (secret =D), but its not bad =)

Yep, nothing much of a new year. I don't really care about red packets... maybe I've grown out of them. Anyway, just hope that I can sleep more in this little escape from the morose little semester.

To do list

Courseworks

-Readings x N (a few novels + a few stacks of photo copied crap)
-One essay on literature and art
-One stupid journal entry
-One fill in the blanks worksheet

Sch stuff

-souvenirs (concept + design?)

Domestic stuff

-pack my room (its in a mess...)

Others

-Game, and some other practices
-Do more exercises man... getting more "pooi"

Not much of a holiday... eh?

Erm... what should I call this?

After drawing that logo thingy, well, the first thing that came into my mind is that... is it really suitable for hoodie/t-shirt designs? And considering that the previous one was a trashy piece of work... well, even if we get it printed, it wont be good enough for shirt designs. So... I came up with another thingy, this thingy. Seriously, I haven't thought of what it should be, or what to call it. It look like a ghost, but I believe that it is a bubble of some sort. Oh well, leave the name aside. guess this will look fine behind our backs =D

Symmetrical version (the middle line is supposedly the zipper)

Vista Antivirus Pro 2010

When I switched on my comp today, theres something extra (or rather, many extras) that popped out. Well, somehow, a program called "Vista Antivirus Pro 2010" has found its way to my comp. It does nothing but telling you that your comp is infected with this and that. I wont want to say it but I have ran a few adaware scans before hand and it is not really possible for my comp to have THAT many viruses (a few hundreds it says ...) when adaware says 0. Anyway, I clicked "delete infected files". It prompted for license... wth?! So it's asking me to pay, eh.... Guess Microsoft learnt something from google ad =.= I then googling our little antivirus friend here. Guess what? It says firefox is a high risk item. IE then ... another high risk item. Well, somehow I managed to get into firefox after a few task manager shutdowns. Googled the programme, and found that the first page consists of only instructions on how to remove it. Hell fishy, eh?

Anyway, here's a little something that I've found while googling this little antivirus or so-called. http://www.bleepingcomputer.com/combofix/how-to-use-combofix

It's a useful cleaning program. Try it if somehow u got that retarded "Vista antivirus pro 2010".