2009年11月29日星期日

Suggested references

From Question Paper:

On conversational Maxims:
- p.129 – p.130 of your textbook.
- Grice, P. (1989). Studies in the Way of Words. Harvard University Press
- Mey, J. (2001). Pragmatics: An introduction, page 76-77. Blackwell.
- Wardhaugh, R. (2006). An Introduction to Sociolinguistics. Blackwell.
From Wikipedia:

References

  1. Mey, Jacob. 2001. Pragmatics: An Introduction, page 76-77. Blackwell.
  2. Wardhaugh, Ronald. 2006. An Introduction to Sociolinguistics. Blackwell.
Well... I'm not trying to say that the tutors are slacking or whatsoever, but then... even if you wanna copy something from wiki, don't make it so obvious that the page numbers are kept... I mean, it'll only make it much less convincing when profs are saying that wiki sucks or whatsoever ...

... Man, I better find my own references...

2009年11月25日星期三

D+

其實越低分越好
最起碼證明我沒被牽著個鼻子走

喜歡的 只是即興與自由
不喜歡 也只有規範與束縛罷了

也許會覺得我高傲自大
怎麽看 悉隨尊便吧

但 請別忘記
就是這麽一份自大 才承托得起那麽一份自尊
也就是那麽一份自尊 才會讓一字一句潤而有力

好多時候會覺得
槍和筆 其實沒區別
要經過磨煉 要對準目標
還要一份堅定的自信
才能使一切直入心扉

當對自己的能力有所懷疑時
抱歉 一切已經太遲了

所以說 別的科
若派爛分 我還會有點感覺
可這門課 說真的 我一看到我的分...

笑了


是因爲這分並沒代表著我的能力

是因爲這分沒有削弱自我的肯定

是因爲我所經歷過的地獄 並不是一兩個膚淺的成績可以印證的

也是因爲能更清晰地回顧以前的一切

回顧爲何總是討厭學校的那麽一個規範
爲何總是不能認同別人的觀點
爲何總會尋找那麽一個 "這不是絕對的"

抱歉
還是那麽孤傲
還是那麽任性
還是那個自我
還是那麽一句

就算與天為敵 就算遍體鱗傷 最後還能笑著走出來 已經夠了

2009年11月13日星期五

的士

久違一次的搭的士會學校
要不是因爲今天得交功課
要不是因爲我坐在電腦面前超過二十個小時
弄到腦袋有點麻麻的
我也許也不會這樣的豪吧

上了的士 很快地便和那司機聊了起來
也許我那麽一個習慣到現在都還沒改變吧
可我還是那樣可以跟任何人閒聊

那司機一開始便問我爲什麽搭的士
好奇怪的一個問題哦
說真的 這位大概大我三十餘年的司機
講話未免太直了吧
我便回答了幾句
然後這司機便提到所謂的 "緣分"
... 幹嗎好像進了佛堂似的... ?

然後當這司機知道我是學生的時候
便開始講了很多關於自己的東東
例如他怎麽喜歡讀書 可有因爲錢而沒辦法繼續 之類的
我覺得 還好吧 讀書不一定是唯一的出路
然後他便問我 我將來有什麽理想 (好有小學 feel...)
我便蠻坦然地會答 我喜歡讀書 (我承認 我當時沒睡醒)
然後那司機便說了一大堆關於讀書有關的東西
然後便說 我這年紀的人 很少會像我這樣
他說 自己喜歡讀書因爲自己喜歡寫作
我自己也認同了我是這樣一個人
可他也說 我這類型的人 人生應該會蠻孤獨的
我笑了 孤獨這個詞 對於我來説 一點都不陌生吧?

再來就是什麽學科該讀 什麽學科不該讀
他說 他只有唯一一個學科他推薦 - 哲學
因爲 你讀完了你最起碼學會做人
最起碼你看懂了這個世界
也問了我爲什麽我不去讀哲學
我便回答說 文學也是差不多吧?
(我當然不敢講說我認識一個因爲成績爛得可以才進哲學的人...)
然後他也講了一科他最鄙視的 - 法律
他說 律師只是有錢人的"狗"
會爲了錢而不顧一切
我不能否定他啦... 可還是覺得 法律跟哲學 未免也有點雷同吧?

然後講到這個社會 (奇怪... 15~20分鐘的車程... 談到的東西也未免太多了吧...)
我說 不說你 連我這二十初頭的都已經看透了
這社會 累了 也已經變質了吧?
可又有誰又能力去改變這一切呢?
能做的 想做的 只是一個無名的旁觀者
我也說 我很久沒看報紙了
不是說我不想跟著這塵世的脈搏而跳動
只是 看到的 有多少真假 有多少虛僞 能分辨嗎?
重要嗎?

那司機便聯係到宗教
他說 他很崇拜宗教的哲學
他是無神論者 可他能看出宗教的真理
社會上 假如每五百 每一千個人
只有一個被感化了 只有一個沒變質了
宗教也會盡量去挽回那麽一個人
也會感到值得

還好吧...
下車時 不懂爲什麽 這司機講了一句話
就算以後感到孤獨 也不要難過哦~

嗯嗯
說真的
這司機 對 他以前是沒有讀什麽書 他的世界也許也只有那麽一個狹窄的空間
可他的人生觀 他的人生哲學 並不會比任何一個我在大學遇到的人遜色

一把未曾彈過的吉他
一只未曾玩過的遊戲
一幅未曾畫好的塗鴉
一座未曾整好的模型
一篇未曾寫好的文章
一間未曾整理的房間
一頓未曾吃完的晚飯
一套未曾看完的劇集

還有...

一些未曾兌現的承諾

... 你們 ... 還好嗎?

2009年10月31日星期六

Fictional realism

Saw this from one of the critics...
"The secret of writing successful fantasy fiction is not to make all things indeterminate and possible, but to alter only a single, isolated aspect of reality."
I don't know who said this, cause the author did not quote it, but it's safe to say that H.G. Wells mentioned something similar in the preface of Seven Famous Novels, cause that's where the author said he got the idea from. Anyway, it continues ...
"In other words, to be believable in producing this kind of fantasy one may write a 'what-if-pigs-could-fly' kind of story, but one needs to limit it exclusively to flying pigs. Introducing flying human beings, for example, would be to break the rules."
Well, it's kinda interesting, though it may not necessary be true. I mean, if this rule applies for almost every fictional story, then it will be kinda boring, right? Though I do tend to believe that it would be a lot easier for someone not so experienced in writing to write a fiction that consists only of one altered reality (not that it'll be easy, but easier at least). Oh well, it's always easier to learn realism before working on fantasies and imaginations...

Oh and erm, for that flying pigs part, what if someone looks like a pig and has a figure of a pig...? Will he or she be counted? ... interesting...

2009年10月19日星期一

Suicidal

The prof talked about 'Falk' by Conrad during today's modernism class. Knowing me, I wouldn't have read the text before hand... ok, I'm not slacking or what, and I did read through everything for previous lessons, but I seriously don't want to describe the state I am currently in, so please, spare me from such reoccurring torments...

Anyway, the prof talked about how the ship the main character was on got lost on the seas, and how the they ran out of food. Then the prof talked about how sailors started to commit suicide (including the captain). How one dude simply jumped off, and another dude let got of the ropes he is clinging on and stuff. Then the prof went on to talk about how the main character and another few started cannibalism, of which they've started eating their fellow deceased shipmates...

Well, nothing interesting here, eh? The thing is, I didn't read the story, so when the prof came to me and asked for my opinion... like always... (It's not that I'm a loner, but blame the fact that I'm the only male in a class of 30 for sitting alone...) ... and of course, having not read anything, I can only come up with something based on the professor's depictions. Well, this is what I said.

"When professor you are describing the sailors who committed suicide, one though struck me. When a sailor jumped into the sea, I can't help but think 'Ahhhh~ there goes another day's supply of food!'... and when another sailor jumped into the sea 'Noooooo~ another day's meal is gone!'... "

The professor labeled me with 'utilitarian' ....

Oh well, who said lit is boring?

Dread

Will keep this REAL short:

I DREAD WRITING

K, that's it for today~ =P

2009年10月15日星期四

After the Apocalypse

亂寫了個故事 (學校要求)... 見以後都唔會有機會用 所以我就放咗係呢度~

It was year 2381, five years after the baptising of Earth by the notorious Nuclear Apocalypse, of which it is an atrocity caused by the Nuclear War, or the Fourth World War, launched by both China and the United States, two of the strongest nations then. Of course, the whole world fell into a post-apocalyptic era as all nations disintegrated, be it formally or not, and most life forms, including humans, were annihilated. There were a certain fortunate few, such as myself, who managed to survive the apocalypse in underground facilities when the bombs fell, though not many had such an honour. Some, who were rather lucky, turned into ghouls after being directly exposed to radiations, and many others simply vanished. Settlements and communities were built, of course, as rapidly as they were being destroyed, though they are comprised mainly of scrap materials and ruins which have escaped the malevolence of the Nuclear War.

Two days had passed since I’ve started my journey to Elysium, currently one of the most populated human civilizations. Concrete and trash rubbles clattered under my feet as I dragged myself on. Scotching rays from the sun had taken away most of the pleasure of the journey, especially since there is no possible form of shelter anywhere as the surface of the Earth is both naked and bared. A little rain would be good, I thought, though the irritations caused by irradiated rain isn’t all that pleasing either. Other means of transportation is literally impossible. Not only is it because that nothing can possibly manoeuvre through these grounds, it is also a fact that fuels such as petroleum, too, ceased to exist after the Nuclear War as the whole world was set ablaze.

After another hour or so of walking, the façade of the gates to Elysium greeted me with solemnity. Elysium might be a community lain in ruins when compared to any form of architecture before the Nuclear Apocalypse, but none can dismiss the fact that this is the place with the most advanced form of human sophistication. The city is barricaded by scrap metallic plates in an irregular array. The houses too, as I realized soon enough, are being built with nothing more than scrap metals, of which they are shaped into something cubical and are erected intrinsically in a disorderly manner. Architecture here is different from where I came from, where most buildings are fortunate enough to still be standing, though barely, and habitation inside one is possible.

***

I located the inn as soon as I have familiarized myself with the city, a city with a population of around two hundred. A waiter greeted me as soon as I step inside the inn, a ghoul.

“Ah, a lone wanderer. What would you like?”

“Martini, please,” I said, and soon enough my curiosity got the better of me. “You’re something special, aren’t you?”

The ghoul smiled as he fetched my drink. Bright red defacements can bee observed from all of his visible skin. Eye sockets, nose, lips and ears are not visible features of his head, which took the shape of his skull. Hair, too, is scarce as only a few strands are visible. A minute or so passed and he came back with my drink.

“There’re not many of my kind around here. Not many of us are socially welcomed outside Underworld. I’m fortunate enough to have been offered a job by the keeper.”

Underworld is a city where communities of ghouls reside.

“Nah, you look fine,” I lied.

“Thank you,” the ghoul grinned. “We feel better that way, even if it’s just a lie… You know, many condemned our appearances, and it’s not pleasant at all. We were just unlucky when the bombs fell, and did not have the fortune to die. So… what brings you here?”

“I’m looking for someone,” I replied. “He has been involved in some projects a while back… and the Enigmatics is kind of against it.” The Enigmaticstics is a self-proclaimed government which appears after the Nuclear Apocalypse who owned one of the two remaining radio broadcasting stations. It should be noted that almost all forms of communications and media, be it wired or wireless, have disintegrated. Even as such, a few power plants miraculously survived the Nuclear War.

“The Enigmatics…” the ghoul spoke softly. “No one likes them, their egoism and pride, but no one really gives much of a thought about them. No one knows where they are, though I’ve heard that you can trace them with their radio wave.”

“Yes, I’ve heard about that.”

“Ah… But if you are seeking the Enigmatics, you should head for Paradise Lost and consult the brotherhood …”

The ghoul paused as his naked eyes gazed upon the silver pin on my collar.

“… I didn’t realize that you’re one of them… my deepest apologies…”

“It’s alright,” I replied as I emptied my glass. “How much was that? Oh and how much is it for one night?”

***

As soon as I’ve gotten my keys, I settled myself in my room. A vague sense of metallic and dusty stench filled the room. While making my preparations, I can’t help but to let my thoughts run wild. What has become of this world? The Nuclear Apocalypse came and gone, and everything should become tranquil once again, or at least this is what the destiny of humanity deserves. But no, chaos never ceased to reign and catastrophes never ceased to thrive. It’s pointless. Humanity has already lost everything and the rubble outside is more than enough to proof just that.

This is year 2381, five years after the Nuclear Apocalypse. Most life forms are annihilated and most human sophistications lies in oblivion, but not war.

2009年10月4日星期日

Random ppl

It's not that I don't like to make friends, else there won't be anyone to play L4D/CS with. And it's not that I don't like to talk to strangers, cause that's basic social interaction. But what I can't understand, or like, is someone adding me on msn, pretending that I am someone they know in real life but in fact I'm not, and tries to squeeze answers of those W questions from me. Well, that's what happened yesterday.

Ok, heres what happened. Someone added me on msn and started to pretend that I am someone who that particular person who has added me knows in real life. She said that she's a female, somehow, and I seriously don't care what her name is, since her add is so pathetically random. Anyway, she started babbling some nonsensical stuff, about how she got my msn and how I'm just putting on a facade when I'm saying I don't know her, though she gave up soon enough.

Well, I seriously didn't care, till the following day (today), she started asking for something relatively personal.

She started asking if I know Chinese.
I typed a few sentences in Chinese.

Then after a while, she asked for my picture.
I changed my msn display pic to one of my own photo.

Then she asked what sch I'm from.
I babbled my sch name (as if she knows...)

Then she asked if I have a gf...
I replied saying "No, cause I'm too ugly"

Then she asked for my phone number... ... ...
I said "no"
Then she said "I hate you" and threatens to block me
I replied "I don't mind"
and she blocked me.

Seriously, I felt nothing but gladness when she did that. I mean, seriously, what the heck happened? I've been blocked by some utter stranger saying that she hates me cause I refused to give my phone number out? Man... as if those commercial and advertisement calls aren't enough of a bother... Gosh... the ludicrousness of this world is really incorrigible...

2009年10月3日星期六

L4D2 ...?

Just saw a L4D2 pre-purchase poster on steam. Here's what they've written on it:

Left 4 Dead 2
Pre-purchase now and SAVE 10%!

PLUS:
-Early access to the demo
-Exclusive in-game baseball bat
-Be ready to play L4D2 the moment it is released on Nov 17th
Just wondering... how many of you feel that this kinda "promotion is attractive"? Oh and for your information, L4D2 is priced at 49.90 before the 10% off, and 44.90 after the 10%. ... ... ... Valve ... admit it, you guys are in tight financial situations, and you guys are desperate for money in any and every possible way...

2009年9月26日星期六

Games = Pain

Alright, since Davin said reading Chinese is far too troublesome, I think I gotta type this one in English, no matter how reluctant I am... Mmmm yea, just came back from a little walk. Got a new laptop. Well, come to think of it, it should be my 7th comp which I owned in my whole life. Oh well, if you count those DOS and windows 3.11 ones, that is.


Got some accessories and walked passed a game stall. Saw a few of the titles which I wanted: Resident Evil 5, Red Faction Guerrilla and Batman: Arkham asylum. People who knows me well enough will know what a game freak I am. Anyway, after around 1 second of mental struggle, I got all 3 of them for 800 HKD. Pretty cheap when I compare that to the pricing in steam, which adds up to around 140 USD (around 1100 HKD). So... 3 games down, 2 more to go (Assassin's creed II and bioshock 2... screw L4D2) Oh and the new Need for Speed (shift isit?) looks kind of promising. Undercover is crappy, though Most Wanted is pretty epic if you ask me. Not that Most Wanted rules or anything, but at least it's better than it's predecessors.

So currently, there's 3 great (currently) titles sitting beside me, while I am trying to work on the 2 presentations (both of them are kinda heavy) which are due on the day after and on Wednesday respectively... YES! I CAN FEEL THE PAIN! Man.... seriously, why can't they come out like a month earlier?! 2 or 3 days is all I need to clear 1 game... blehx .... T.T ... ... ...

Why is Batman:AA 18+ only?!?!?!

2009年9月14日星期一

陰盛陽衰

首先我得説明 我真的不懂該放什麽做標題
我懂這標題會有點噁心
可我真的... 江郎才盡了 (雖然我是沒有什麽才華喇...)


今天第一次上現代主義課
還好啦
全班 包括我 有三個男生
嗯 全班有大概三十個人吧?
其實算好了
不過唯一的問題就是
另外的兩名兄弟
都只是來坐坐的
並沒有真的選修這門課
他們說對這議題感有興趣
而且這段時間蠻空閒的
所以就來坐坐囖
所以 實際來説
全班只有我一個是男的......

救命吖!!!!!!!

發生什麽事了???!!!
班兄弟呢?!?!?!
我自己一個是生存不了的喇!!!
前晚去單挑然後全部被幹掉是嗎???
拜托...
上一次上課的時候還有大概十個八個男的吖...
真的...
突然覺得好可憐吖...
救命...

2009年9月10日星期四

八半

一想起要上八點半的堂
就會有片刻想起以前預科時候的情景
早上六點就要起床
七點得到學校
然後八點上課上到下午五六點
現在回想起來
在大學上八點半的課
其實算蠻好的喇
第一
我不是得連續十個小時上同一些苦悶的課
第二
八點半我也曾經上過
其實也不會怎麽地難受
只是早期罷了吧?
呵呵
這種回歸預科時候的感覺
其實也挺懷舊的啊
唯一希望的是
別再像預科時候那樣在堂上睡着了...

2009年9月9日星期三

Shesh

這世界自主權去了哪裏了?!
幹嗎我寫一些比較感傷的東西
就開始有人會來問我
"what's wrong?!" / "what happened?"
拜托...
一些感言而已喇...
一些爲了對得起自己而寫的話
是不是我一定要滿口粗話才算是正常?
是不是我動不動都要說 "去死了你" 或 "信不信我打死你" 才算正常?
好啦好啦
獨白其實也是一種自我反省的好方法哦~
其實吖
對自己說一大堆無釐頭的話
一些連自己都看不懂的個人哲學
其實蠻好玩的

而且 要怪就怪facebook喇
整天事無大小 有事沒事都會把握網誌的東東丟上去
所真的
我真的想把一些類似笑話的物體放在這
可這也未免太牽強 太奇怪了吧?
還是留著
等有機會見面的時候才講吧~

嗯嗯
不過我還是得感謝那些問了問 "發生什麽事" 的好友們
畢竟我沒想到小小的一篇 或幾篇 胡言亂語可以觸動到你們的反應
我不太會説話
不過
嗯嗯嗯
真的很謝謝
=D

2009年9月8日星期二

好人?

好人 其實 都挺難做

好多時候...
... 沒有人會理會你所做的一切
... 沒有人會認同你所幫的忙
... 沒有人會感謝你那無謂的付出
... 沒有人會明白其實你可以不幫
甚至 ... 沒有人會察覺到你的存在 ...

不過
若果我會因此而變得虛假 變得現實 變得爆燥
我做不到
對 沒人看得到
對 沒人會理會
但 我還是會盡力去幫我自行認爲應該幫的
還是會做我自己應該做的

不 我並不認爲我是好人還是什麽
我只是讓我的潛意識帶領我自己
抱歉 我從來都不認爲我聰明
所以我不懂得分辨對與錯 是與非

若果我連那麽一點事都不幫
抱歉 我做不到